The Darkness Inside

Assalamualaikum..

Hye semua..

Tak pasti kenapa dan mengapa, tapi perasaan Sha sekarang sangat berat, sarat dan bergumpal..

Emosi terkumpul tanpa dapat diluahkan.. Its happen regularly nowdays.. Sepatutnya tak macam ini.. Tapi sha seolah-olah terkurung dalam satu emosi sedih yang tak mahu pergi.. Membaca pun tak mampu pulihkan semangat Sha, sebaliknya Sha memaksa diri untuk membaca.. 

Emosi kali ini macam tak nak membebaskan Sha.. Walaupun melalui kehidupan seharian seperti biasa tapi Perasaan Sha masih terpenjara dalam kesedihan.. It's feel like i should really get some help like before but its always stuck me from that decisions..Kehilangan tu ke puncanya?? Sha pun tak pasti.. Cuma perasaan sedih tu tak mahu pergi.. Sha luahkan.. dekat blog, dekat encik suami tapi rasa makin terkurung dalam kesedihan.. Rasa makin jauh kedasar kesedihan.. Bukan rasa bebas tapi makin tenggelam.. Ada masanya Sha hilang dalam kesedihan yang tak bertepi.. 

I feel really lost in the maze of sadness.. 

The darkness won't let me go.. 

It hold me so dearly..

The crying never gonna stop..

I was broken badly..

I don't know how to heal it..

The wound struck deeply in my heart..

The pain won't leave me..

It hugs me tight..

The dark keep pulling me deeper..

I was lost so deep in the maze..

I feel the heaviness in my heart..
The needle that pierce through..
The breathing that was heavy..
It feels like i'm going to sink deeper than before..
How can i pull myself..
When i'm already lost in the dark..

I want to be free and happy..

I keep on trying but the darkness keep on pulling me back..

How can my heart be light again..

 Is the sadness really not going to let me go..

I hope i will not be lost forever..